Tired....lost track of the days...

so tired~!~ been working two days of full day at the factory... physically beaten!~~ but still have to work!~!~

Keep our photos and you photos away into my memory box... found a card that you gave me once... read the content... no feeling...

When I decided to ignore all your message today and move on, not going to think about this whole matter... you message me to ask me out ... today is your duty day... yet you want to come out... you say if I want, you will to change duty with others... no feeling... am I suppose to feel happy? Yet I felt nothing... do I have a choice? No! you say you suddenly have no feeling for our love. Did you give me a chance to say no, you can't do that to me? No! You say you need to be by yourself, so need to cool off for awhile, so won't be meet up with me. Did you give me a chance to say no? No! And now you feel like meeting up with me, and start arranging to meet up this friday for dinner and sunday to CQ. Can I too say no to you?

At this point, I have already lost my ability to think nor feel... I still breathe, still eat, still laugh, still talk... coz I need to... have to... but what contain inside is emptied.... I live for the seek of living...

喜欢听歌 感人的歌
它让我觉得 爱是对的
睡不着 我就醒着
不再让日子被打乱了

[Chorus]
寂寞很吵 我很安静
情绪很多 我很镇定
因为投入 所以放弃
不愿再被痛醒
固执算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到结果
终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避 让感情犯错

喜欢唱歌 动人的歌
它让我获得一些心得
得不到 我就放掉
不去触碰到我的需要

repeat [Chorus]

承诺算不算任性的要求
人总是不能太容易感动
当爱失去自我失去包容
只想要 从混乱解脱

Decided to spend one semester at austrialia for my study next year... waiting for a friend to confirm she is going.. scared to go there alone and my mum is worried also... if she is all set, will go there for a semester... but won't be telling you this... think at most will msg you to tell you to take care of yourself when I about to depart on that day... (Sound like some drama scene hor... the lead actresses going away, gave a call to the lead actor to say good bye... and the lead actor will rush to the airport... to stop the main actresses not to go...)

Tired ah!~!~ muscle ache~!~~~~ think I will sleep early... tommorrow will be another day... and again another day... tired... dont know is physical exhaustion or mentally exhaustion that cause this tireness in me... think is both... I'm too worn out already...

I'm afraid for the day of meeting up with you... don't know why... what is the point... going back together seems like an impossible... my mum is pissed with you, so is my god dad... how could you convince them, you won't hurt me again... My mum is so strongly disagree of me having thoughts of patching back with you... she even warned me... now I still can stand up after this defeat, don't go back again. The second time, I won't be able to stand again... but in actual fact... I'm just putting a strong face infront of her... I'm too scared to love again... so much afraid... so I think there won't be another time or next time again...